Fadhilat Selawat...

Assalamualaikum.. Lg-Lucky here hehehehe.. Sempena menyambut hari Juma'at ini maka hamba lampirkan di bawah ini hadith Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu alaihi wassalam.. yang menyatakan tentang fadhilat Selawat.. Lepas itu ada celoteh lah sedikit membuat al kisah.. hehehe..

Abu Hurairah berkata: Nabi SAW bersabda

Apabila seorang mukmin membaca selawat untukku, maka selawat itu diambil oleh malaikat
dengan izin Allah sampai ke kuburku. Maka Malaikat berkata "wahai Muhammad!, umatmu telah membaca selawat untuk engkau!" lalu kata Nabi, " sampaikan kepadanya dariku sepuluh selawat dan katakan kepadanya telah seharusnya bagimu mendapat syafaat dari ku (Nabi).

Maka Malikat tadi terus naik ke atas Arasy dan berkata, "wahai Tuhanku, sesungguhnya manusia ini telah membaca selawat sekali untuk kekasihMu. Maka Allah berfirman, " Sampaikan kepadanya dari Aku sepuluh selawat"

Sebagai mana di atas selawat kepada Nabi banyak faedahnya.. Banyak orang-orang soleh mengamalkan selawat.. sampai bermacam-macam ragam selawat yang diamalkan.. tapi hamba di sini bukannya kan mengajarkan selawat-selawatnya tapi saja mengingatkan bahawa banyak kebaikkan boleh didapat macam sales di kadai-kadai.. hehehe.. tapi ani nda payah bayar tapi pakai cakap saja hehehe.. Kalau kitani mengaku sebagai Umat Nabi Muhammad lafaz saja selawat sebanyak mungkin.. Passssssaaalllll ia berguna di kemudian hari.. masa di akhirat Allah akan memberikan izin Nabi Muhammad untuk memberikan syaafaat (memilih umatnya untuk di masukkan disyurga).. Nabi kitani akan dapat mengenal umatnya dari anggota wudhu di mana akan bercahaya masa di hari akhirat.. selain atu ia mengenal umatnya yang pernah berselawat padanya.. Nabi Muhammad adalah seorang yang penyayang akan umatnya..camana jauh sayangnya? bayangkan masa Nabi Israk Mikraj Allah telah memberikan peluang berdoa yang akan dimustajabkan disamping atu Allah jua menunjukkan cucu nabi akan syahid di bunuh.. Apa Nabi buat ia minta Allah supaya ia menyimpan doa ani untuk umatnya.. bayangkan.. Nabi stock doa atu untuk umatnya bukan untuk menyelamat cucunya.. Hingga akhir hayat Nabi pun masih sayangkan umatnya sampai akhir nafasnya ia mengulang-ulang.."Umat ku, Umat ku, Umat ku!!".. Dan kalau tidak silap hamba masa di akhirat nanti nabi akan mencari umatnya yang berselawat walaupun sekali semasa di dunia.. kalau hamba tidak silap.. jika hamba silap tolong, tolong dan tolong betulkan..

Oleh itu hamba menyeru dan mengatakan pengajaran pada hari ini ialah cinta Nabi Muhammad dengan berselawat dengannya. Hamba menasihati diri sendiri dan para pembaca blog ini supaya mencintai Nabi dan secara langsung mencintai Allah.. Bukan apa hamba takut kana soal di akhirat nanti.. takut kana soal dan kana ucap pengkhianat Allah dan Rasulnya. Sekurang-kurangnya hamba sudah menyampaikan dan mengajarkan sedikit agama yang inda seberapa ani kepada umat Islam umumnya lelaki kerana hadith ani ilmu.. jadi ilmu jangan di simpan bertagar sampai kana tanya dalam kubur.. ia lebih baik diajarkan kepada lain..

Dari Abu Hurairah r.a. meriwayatkan, bahawa Rasulullah bersabda:

Maksudnya: Apabila anak adam meninggal dunia, maka putuslah segalah amalan kecuali 3 perkara: sedekah jariah atau ilmu yang bermanfaat atau anak yang soleh berdoa untuknya.

Oleh itu, hamba ingin meninggalkan ilmu yang bermanfaat iaitu: mencintai Rasul (berselawat) dan dan satu lagi ilmu tentang peranan lelaki dalam berkeluarga (keluarga di ajarkan Islam, dan mewariskan anak-anak yang soleh dan solehah) seperti di bawah ini..

Nabi saw telah mengingatkan para suami dengan sabdanya yang bermaksud: "Takutlah kepada Allah dalam memimpin isteri-isterimu, kerana sesungguhnya mereka adalah amanah yang berada di sampingmu; barangsiapa tidak memerintahkan solat kepada isterinya dan tidak mengajarkan agama kepadanya, maka ia telah berkhianat kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya."

Ok atu saja ceramah ku hehehe.. takut kamu boring membaca.. wassalam..

Syukor rezeki yg di beri

Yes! Lee D won A.I season 9! 

kabak kabak ku after membaca status my uda psl A.I.. check tenet.. and hu-ha, glad this year.. no surprises.. heheheh To Lee Dewyze: jgn tah ambong2 aah.. jumpa di jln, angkat tangan jadi tah ah.. klu angkat kirai, lagi okay.. ekekekekekke... 

Hot story in newspaper and facebook: Urg buang anak di Hospital Ripas.. hmm.. sayu hatiku mbaca.. yeah.. for obvious reason, i would want to adopt that baby girl.. kana buang2 inda kana gunai.. Alhamdulillah tah jua she's alright, walaupun currently still in ICU/SCBU for close monitoring.. hope she's okay and growing well.. People said di hospital bnyk jua baby kana tinggalkan indongnya.. sometimes because parent nya non-bruneian.. sometimes parentnya student masih.. Iatah dugaan Tuhan tu, some people would see that as beban.. I believe that is God's way for showing us that Ya syg kitani.. supaya kitani sadar inda hanyut di bawa arus keduniaan.. 

Reminisced the past: last year i was offered a baby (lahir tia kali sudah masa ani).. the mother was on the verge of divorce and fell pregnant.. She's not working and has another two sons to take care off.. So she offered the baby to me supaya the future of the baby will be well-taken care off.. Discussed with hubby, of coz lah kami mau.. Rezeki Allah, jgn di tolak.. then after kami agreed & jumpa kedia, rupanya conditional baby nya atu.. she put a price-tag! the way she said it lagi as if she's doing us a favor (since kami ani pun alum bebaby lgi).. aduhai.. 

pikir punya pikir, discussed with family members & friends (yeah, 99.9% disagreed utk ambil baby atu).. we decided not to take the baby.. bukan pulang psl berkira price tag nya atu.. ada sebab musabab nya yg lain kami pikir inda wajar kami jaga baby atu.. After we decided inda dpt ambil the baby atu.. i cried with hubby.. wlupun alum hak milik kami.. tpi sedih jua lah.. how can we feel sad for something or someone we didn't own? Tawakal  'Alallah.. We believed God has better plan for us and better plan for the baby.. It was not meant to be.. Two months after that, we heard the mother found another "Insan" yg sudi adopt her baby.. God bless her..and at the same time, God replaced that baby with a baby of our own..Wlupun rezeki Allah bagi inda lama.. but alhamdulillah the short experience was worth it.. We know ada reason/hikmah sebalik apa saja dugaan yg Allah bagi kitani.. it takes strength, effort & love to overcome the dugaan and move forward with positivity..

Conclusion nya today: Bila nya kana bagi rezeki atu.. syukor2 tah.. mun inda beguna, bari dangan.. bnyk lagi insan2 yg mau menjaga baby.. nda payah di siksa baby atu.. Today we lucky-beany discussed, if we were offered another baby, chana.. I would say we're always be ready for apa jua yg kana bari.. if it meant to be, the path will be easier.. insya Allah..

That's that.. Today mcm trsedih tah pulang.. wahahah.. anyway.. God's will.. Insya Allah..

Lastly, Al-fatihah to our baby.. semoga trgolong didalam kekasih2 Allah di syurga... 

Amin.. 

 

PayDay Sale

It's already wednesday of  last week in May... Bowh!

Soon it will be June and soon i'll be flying to China to "kill" myself infront of other professionals.. This shows how time flies fast when you're having fun... honestly, lurus kah tu?? Fun kah tu?? Kabak kabak ku alum jua sanyam.. and now i have to prepare mentally and physically for it.. Rabbi Yaseer wa la tu'asseer 3x.. Semoga di permudahkan segala urusan.. Amin amin..

Today, curi2 masa during lunch time to read the newspaper.. Energy week still caught my eyes.. ave. of 85% reduction in petrol sales overalls on Monday.. specifically diesel, there's 93% drop in sale.. kir ku 100% eh... i mean nobody bali minyak on Monday.. kiranya 15% atu due car owners indeed forgot to buy petrol on Sunday.. lgi kesian kalau dlm 15% atu ada urg miri yg melawat round Brunei sampai tangkinya E, thinking "yeah i can buy petrol cheap in Brunei" wahahahah.. hiru biru tu.. On Monday, I read one of my friend's status on Facebook.. "urg yg paling rileks keraja ari ani (Monday) ialah urg keraja arh stesen minyak" hehehe skali nya kana comment "urg yg paling stress ari ani ialah urg yg tangki minyak nya ampai2 arh E".. so true!! indeed that's the 15%.. jadi tah.. hopefully Gov't effort is appreciated.. Although i seldom drive.. (for a reason that is widely known).. I do appreciate our fuel subsidies.. Not because i work in an Oil&Gas industry, but because in Spore, the car petrol is damned expensive.. you can hear it from uncle2 taxi and you can hear it from your friends complaining for petrol.. I once ikut Uncle Hj dali & Auntie Rubiah (indung angkat kami di spore) mbali minyak utk kereta dorg yg 3.0cc lah (just like our Fortuner).. I think it was diesel and cost a whooping $80++ SGD for full tank.. kepisan kan.. Our Fortuner paling2 di asak pun dlm $17-$18 full tank.. hmmm.. bersyukor tah kan..

Another thing yg caught my eyes reading the newspaper was the advertisement.. Sale Sale Sale.. Heran.. sale apa ujung bulan 5 ani.. Sekali nya 1 shop advertised "Payday Sale".. Apehal! Hahaha.. Nazmi advertised "Sale as low as 50cents per metre".. you'll only pay like $2 sepasang.. sounds great uh? I fell into this trap before (but not as cheap as $2 sepasang).. I joined the crowd fighting for the cheap kain.. turned out I didn't even want to wear or potong these kain.. WHY?? I hate wearing the kain that I know i'm bound to clash with other people especially time jemputan.. honestly, if that happen, what would you say? "eh sama kain kitani" then kikih kikih ketawa then what?? i think i have 3-4 pasang kain + baju that I don't want to wear because i saw other people wearing them especially if dorg pakai as kain basahan like baju ari2 keraja.. aiyoo.. ukan plg sombong.. since i seldom wearing baju kurong to work.. most of my kain or baju are for Hari Raya where I katok2 and I manik2.. kalau ku nampak kana buat baju basahan, trmutok tah atingku kan makai.. hahahah.. ujung2 nya sedakah kan saja arh org lain ..

Okay.. Today Miss FR requested to put the picture of our house in this blog.. she said she couldn't see the pics properly from facebook.. nda muhat daming picture nya kah? hehehe.. So dear here it is.. Still more work need to be done.. This picture taken from the mobile-cam, quality-wise just so-so.. The theme of the house is suci & gemilang.. hahahha.. suci being white and gemilang being mine? i don't know.. the house has not reach the gemilang stage yet.. hope it will be.. Insya Allah..

That's that for now.. 

Currently, Glee is on StarWorld.. so gotta go!

A'bientot... Bon Nuit...

Energy Week

The theme of the week is saving energy.. jimat tenaga.. SOS.. Switch off & Set.. 

So my small, minute contribution to Energy week is to switch off whatever needs to be switched off.. Like lampu di bilik when nada org.. use only 1 light in the living room while watching tv etc lah.. Honestly, part switching off aircon atu abit reluctant sal the lamaks are sooo tabal, need more power to cool off the body behind the lamaks.. heheheh.. At work, i switch off my PC totally after work.. Usually during work overload, i tend to leave my pc switch on throughout the night so that i don't have to wait for long start-up the next morning nya *kan short cut lah tu* tpi this week, commited to switch off my pc regardless.. well i did say small & minute contribution.. mun jangku huge contribution, then i would walk to work *and walk back home immediately* to change clothes sal kebasahan bagas jln kaki hehehe lagi tah energy saving sal my pc would be switch-off whole time, waiting owner nya jln kaki back & forth ke opis hehehee.. oh yaah i forgot.. i also carpool with my hubby to work to save energy.. mcm sibnr (sejak bila jua inda carpool)

To others: what's your contribution?? In Facebook, people are hu-ha about it on Monday saja.. then pastu sanyam tia.. walhal this is energy week! the effort should last for 1 week.. do contribute wlupun sidamit mana pun.. and do appreciate what the gov't has done to help us to sustain our "lavish" living i.e. fuel subsidies.. Sadar2 tah aaaand yeah.. Happy Energy Week!!

That's that for now.. tadi collect tiket for hubby dah.. and I should be preparing for my China trip.. prepare as in mbuat my script for my presentation.. My supervisor, my team lead, the owner of the paper balik dah tagih to have dry run of my presentation.. but i haven't got clue what to say.. dry run of presentation??? iatah mikin dry the idea ni.. cuba tah wet run of presentation.. mencurah2 kali? heheh *being random*

Enjoy the night.. Love the day..

Love me more!

Weekend is 'ere...

Ketawa ku berbahak2 reading hubby's post.. hehehhe at first i was amused reading his entry input yg rabut2 atu..
i said to him: "apa ni.. campur2 bahasa nya ani.. english jua, melayu jua"
my hubby: "biar chia waah, 1st time.. campuran 3 bahasa english, melayu standard & melayu brunei"

i read through lagi.. and finally understood of what his entry was all about.. My kelayakan does not entitle me to criticize on my hubby's entry.. there's a reason disebalik ciptaan Tuhan.. shame of me! my english is not good.. my malay is not that good either.. who am I to criticize.. Allah menerima doa manusia dari pelbagai bahasa.. God doesn't need our English to be polished or Malay to be superb... God accept and listen regardlesss and yeah.. although my hubby's blog entry was unconventional and sounded kong-kang.. in our world - that's the reality.. i asked my close friend to be the 1st invited "audience" to our blog.. and she said "stick to malay saja baaah" hehehehe.. she's right... we just need to sound "original".. my husband entry is more original than mine.. i know selalunya when he tells story.. he wants to spice it up with mixing the jimby-jimbo languages.. hahahha and it always cracks me up.. hehehhe.. Lov you hubby.. you're the best story-teller (in my life eva!)

i'll stick to English mixed with Malay.. coz this is my way ! (my way in the hi-way <- limp bizkit?) heheheh.. nada bah.. dulu2 my entry to my diaries pun mixed jua.. the difference is that my entries to my diaries were more spontaneous.. nada jua kan betipex2 kli aaah.. sibuk2 tah lgi kan mbuat correction.. tpi bila nya blog ani, i can't help it by reading it over and over and over.. correcting the english over and over and over.. fixing the entry (*yes, over and over and over) before posting it.. digital entries make it easier to edit bah..ukan salah ku.. salah si computer laaah hahahaha.. kiasu tah kali.. wanting perfection! and yet perfections come in different packages... adang tah eeeehh.. melalut tah pulang... something about me! my wknd so far has been great...

Yesterday, after hubby jln pegi kerja/kursus @ bridex.. i started my wardrobe spring cleaning.. "inspired" by the movie clueless and the reflection on the mirror that day, i was thinking of donating and giving up some of my Size S=Sampit clothes..they are actually size M & L.. but bila kan mengakap kebadan atu, kira Size S tah sudah tu.. I know i won't get thinner soon.. and i know these S clothes could be more useful arah urg lain.. dari pada ya bejaruk collecting bau hama di lemari.. might as well give them up saja.. clearing more space lah.. i know bini2 kan durg selalu ckp "i don't have anything to wear *cue on saying this line nasally like J-lo in maid in manhattan* walhal nya tpt penggantungan baju nya atu kan melantor nganya inda.. baju yg belipat? singit bah tower nya.. teluan banyak jua sudah tu... honestly yg di pakai baju baru and baju yg "luar2" saja..

then mcm on mission, i asked my mother to do her spring cleaning... i asked her"Ma, mama nada baju kan di sedakahkan kah??" Mama: "ada plg.." then we went through her baju kurongs and we only managed to get 4 saja.. katanya the rest still fit.. hahahha.. awu deh... terasa ku.. hahahhaha.. and then i asked my sister, my bungsu.. alum durg tercheck lemari durg if ada baju kan di donate kah inda.. maybe tomorrow i'll ask my babu as well.. in our family, where the size of the food portion matters and size of badan does not matter.. we're sure there are lotsa baju to donate.. believe me! heheheh...

Lapas hubby balik dari kursus.. kami get ready to watch movie lah di Mall.. our 1st movie after my m/c.. hehehhe yeah.. masa i was pregnant earlier this year.. rajin jua mendulur my hubby meliat wyg.. but after that.. mcm bebalik semua (+sibuk jua bah) inda mau meliat movie di panggung atu.. Mr Shrek managed to kick my butt off to the cinema.. to watch him, donkey & fatty puss to the "rescue" heheheh.. sakit jua parut ketawa... heheheh cali eh cali... oh yeah.. before movie.. we had dinner @ Swensen giving this birthday treat to bday boy Ibnu Thawqan. he "was" my fave cousion dulu (i put past tense because i don't have fave cousins anymore, that would be biased tia hahahahha).. because i remembered dulu before i was deported to spore to do my degree, my bungsu gave birth.. hehehe.. everytime balik cuti semester.. kedia growing cuter and cuter.. bibiran as ever.. at age of 1+ he started talking and buleh mengingatkan jenis kereta di jln2 ah.. skalain! nican cani! mbari gerigitan jua tu... well masih plg mbari gerigitan kedia ani.. kipat2.. ckp nya nda tantu2.. ideanya nda tantu2.. still cali.. i hope he enjoyed his bday treat to Swensen and Mr Shrek.. hehehehhe.. and he better shaddap jua.. not to tell to his other cousins.. we don't want to be expected to treat li'l cousins to Swensen&movie.. sorry arrrr... not stingy but heheh this is 1 in a million chance saja.. ahahahhaha

Balik dari movie.. I did another spring cleaning @ casa de lambak.. clearing my hubby's clothes lgi... hehehhe we did this last year tpi we kept most of our baju taim dating thinking yeah we still can into these clothes.. who are we kidding here?? definitely not the baju.. (nangis bah baju tu kana gantung ja, nda kana pakai) hehehehhe... anyway.. managed to "fork out" 1 bakul of baju lama2 utk di sedakahkan urg.. kata my hubby "biar tia turn baju2 ani membawa kegemilangan arh urg lain" hahahhaha.. he was refering to his old baju bola plg tu.. heheheh..

so that concludes 1 bakol from mentiri and another bakol to lambak.. enough to clear the space in our wardrobes.. miraculously (by definition, nda plg miracle) we also found some lost "dress", lost sluar tido, lost sluar bola.. trbayang kamu kan tu.. when you're revoking your wardrobe then "aniiiii naaaaaah seluar batman ku aaaah".. nda batah atu "aniii juaaa seluar yg ku cari2 aaaah" hehehehhe... "batah jua udah baju ani.. baru ku nampak"... sooooo to the rest of people out there... do your wardrobe spring cleaning before you start to chime "I don't have anything to weaaaarrrr"

That half of my weekend gone! Am now waiting for hubby to wake up... heheheh bila bah kan bangun nie... subaru sub-woofer nya ani mcm kan minta servicing hehehe dulur saja tia ya akhir bangun sikit... Oh.. this is "Us".. I'm by default is a morning person.. regardless how late i sleep the previous night.. my eyes automatically terbuka awal.. hehehhe my hubby is not a morning person... well all my previous "sleeping fartners "pun chatu... by "sleeping fartners", i mean my roomies dulu.. just ask Kajoy, Suji , Eding etc etc... mcm buang boring tah ku tu mbaca magazine tia liat tv tia while durg tido.. now after kawin ani, usually i would disturb my hubby sampai ya bangun.. *yes, kejam* but i'm bored bah.. bek jua today ada notebook hubby.. dpt jua aku kill the time by updating our blog... life works out for the best for everybody.. God's will.. T

hat's that for today.. Need to go to shower and may be later visit our house lah.. Tata.. Lov you lots, lov me more.

Lesson Learn for Macgyver Yg Give Up..

Testing.. Testinggg!!! This is the first experience of posting.. hehehe.. Ok not to waste more time before Lg Beany msg for today 21 May 2010 friday LUNCH.. I should make it short comment since this is my first time.. Today after sending Cinta ku to her working place.. i went straight to TAIB Financial Bank.. since it still early so apa lagi.. aku tidooo lah dalam kereta.. bukan main bising aku punya "SUBARU SOUND" heheheh.. then after "SLEEPING BEAST" aku pun uruskan claim yang sepatutnya sudah di claim awal (ada cetanya tu) hehehe nanti ayg suruh cintaku sain since this claim is under her name.. Ok back to the story.. after semua selesai akupun wondering around Belait and end up ke kedai Keling or India.. membeli ice cream choc (outside coklat dlm mint cream) together with minuman favourite Ice Lemon Tea hehehe..

Memandangkan aku sudah tidak ada tempat lagi untuk lepak akhirnya akupun balik ke rumah.. flashback cerita di rumah malam sebelumnya, aku telah berusaha dan bersusah payah untuk mengantikan hos air-con yang telah terputus kerana sudah telalu reput.. jadi macam-macam cetusan idea menusuk otak macgyver ku.. hehehe.. sampai aku pun buat macam-macam design untuk mengantikan hos.. namun semua usahaku gagal.. air tetap menitik meresap masuk kedinding simen flat.. akhirnya akupun berputus asa.. kembali pada masa sekarang.. aku pun sampai ke rumah atau flat namun aku terdengar bunyi yang biasa dan lama sudah tidak didengar sejak hos air con putus.. bila ku lihat!!!... air menitik dari tempat biasa asal dari air-con dirumah atau flat.. aku pun bergegas naik untuk memastikan apakah yang telah berlaku.. setelah aku tekan bell rumah.. amah kami telah membuka pintu dan aku terus berlari melihat air-con telah di switch on.. aku berlari dan naik ketempat air-con dipasang.. dan aku lihat satu ciptaan baru telah dibuat mengalahkan ciptaan ku.. aku terkejut.. lalu kutanya amah.. ""Siapa buat?" lalu katanya "Saya pak!! cuba-cuba saja!!".. Aku pun mengucap dalam hati.. "Subhanallah!!!" aku terus sedar menyatakan dalam hati sesungguhnya kebijaksanaan tidak hanya Allah berikan kepada orang tertentu sahaja.. aku yang mempunyai kelayakkan tinggi tidak terfikir untuk membuat perkara yang sama.. walaupun simple tapi berkesan.. sedangkan dia hanya sebagai "Amah" di rumah.. Pelajaran telah diajarkan Allah terhadap diriku.. jangan memandang orang lain rendah berbanding diri.. walaubagaimana keadaannya..

Oleh itu lesson learn hari ini.. pertama, semua manusia Allah sama ratakan jangan beranggapan aku bagus dan hebat dari orang lain.. kedua, jangan mudah berputus asa dan sentiasa beranggapan baik kepada Allah sesungguhnya ianya mungkin ujian dan mungkin Allah ingin memberikan pertolongan dengan cara lain.. dan ketiga, Allah Maha Penolong maka hampirkanlah diri padaNya dan minta kepadaNya.. Wassalam..

Final A.I & Final "The Biggest Loser" hehehe

Finally!! The finalists A.I masuk final.. duh of coz hehehehe.. I've been supporting Lee D from the beginning (because sora nya mcm David Cook).. so I'm glad that he's in the Final.. Crystal is not bad jua.. She's alright.. you can already see her as an entertainer.. but she's more singer-song-writer.. you know.. like si lady gaga but mellower (ada kah word mellower ani).. jadi nya, my verdict si Lee manang! hahah.. i know it's supposed to be lady's turn after 2 years in a row that lelaki manang A.I.. but between Crystal & Lee, Lee has more wider fan-base.. and he's down-to-earth.. we'll see next week.. we'll see.. heheheh gerenti ku by mid-day on next thursday, sibuk2 online check arh msn.. hmmm the typical me! cannot handle surprises very well.. May be I don't even get to check it online.. some spoiler-alerter will be posting the winner on facebook.. just like lastyear when kris allen won... punya lah ilang my semangat being the avid-Adam's fan.. what to do.. support ja si Adam after ya jadi artist ani heheh..

enough of that.. you shouldn't dedicate 1 blog entry to A.I.. heheheh.. there's an invisbile "rule" that you're only bla-bla-ing about a movie, a show, an artist etc for only 1 paragraph (before you're categorized as fanatic).. 1 paragraph is okay.. i should stop now before i'll have my 2nd paragraph.. hhehehe...

today's at work was slow.. slow as in the progress of my work was slow.. working full-speed but the outcome was not as much.. I didn't progress as much as other people .... which make me feel so demoralized and stressed out.. wawa.. bad thing about stress (*impact on me) is i tend to munch a lot.. the shuga-treat is a must! ice cream, sweets hmmm.. not so good.. Ooh Ooh.. today i walked pass by my own reflection on a mirror and disgusted with what I saw.. oh my.. i'm sure that i'm not alone in this.. I don't mean part yg meliat own reflection atu, but part that i have issues my with weight.. I don't have the right statistic but in my opinion 85% people in Brunei have issues with their weight.. not just urg overweight, underweight jua.. yg gemuk envy yg kurus.. yg kurus envy yg gemuk.. ada lagi yg kurus, tapi perasan gumuk and envy everybody!!! hahaha lain kes nya tu.. back to my overweight, my friend and i always tease each other "bila tah kan kurus ni?" every time we're planning to eat somewhere.. bilaaa bah jua ku kurus..

last two month, I started a bet with my friend at work-- who will lose weight the most.. so far.. no improvement.. it felt good at the beginning (because i lost some weight).. but now it feel suck! she felt it too.. because she have TGIS every saturday with her close-friends.. hahaha both of us not going anywhere.. may be i should track my own weight online.. Those who are with me.. can support me.. those who are NOT with me, can critisize me.. Either way.. I want to be in the right direction lagi semula.. I mean, if i want to be ummi soon.. i gotta get my act together right? yes yes i know, urg gumuk dpt jua preggo.. but yeah.. i will want to be healthy too.. an ummi need to be healthy so that she can be with her family the longest she can.. Am I right??

Alright.. That's all for today.. I guess, i need to work it out.. at work and at home.. balance my life.. Insya Allah.. Bi iznillah.. Niat tani tercapai..

Love u lots!! love myself more..

Today is another day of 3rd week in May... Starting to contribute to the blog again.. and after reading the first entry.. feels mcm ages ago.. bru tah realized mcm ada salah.. i've been married for 3 yrs plus.. not 2 yrs plus.. andang nya effect ber"umur" ani.. terima saja tia..

Over the weekend, bz with the house errand.. mcm nda behabis.. Oh by the way.. when i say house errand, i mean shopping for our-to-be dream house.. we're currently building our house.. well not physically building plg.. (mcm aapa, strong jua ku).. but in the process building our dream house.. The headaches of building dream house ani time-commitment, decision-making and fulus.. actually FULUS is the main headache.. but everbody expect that.. nanti tah i'll share our lessons learnt masa building house ani.. who knows it helps somebody random.. kan kan kan?

Ohh Ohh i just want to share that at the moment, hubby is watching tv, another classic movie "Nujum Pak Belalang" heheheh "Belalang pun Ahli nujumm jugak paaak".. one of hubby's "qualities" is imitating malay classic movie unfortunately selalu salah hahaha.. he keeps on repeating the wrong "quotes".. heran nya bila nya imitating hindi classic movie, lurus bebeno.. i'll just say "no comment, it runs in the family"..

Today's at work was slightly unusual, seeing small light at the end of the tunnel.. the motivation is slowly creeping up.. I can see the faces of my fellow colleagues during meeting today. wanting me to take charge! kesian.. I know i'm slow in taking charge but i also know i'm capable.. what's lacking? motivation.. so far, i managed to pick myself up like 1" from "rock bottom" quoting my darululum sista! btw apa kan rock bottom ani? yeaah rock babieh! hehehe... anyway.. hope the motivation continues to climb upp.. dpt jua kan bebata utk presentation ke china ani..

that's that for today..
signing off.. membelalangkan my eyes jaap..